Carpe Diem.
Carpe diem is a phrase from a Latin poem by Horace that has become an aphorism. It is popularly translated as "seize the day". Carpe literally means "to pick, pluck, pluck off, cull, crop, gather", but Ovid used the word in the sense of, "To enjoy, seize, use, make use of". [source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carpe_diem]

I knew this phrase by heart but never really put it into practice. I always thought that in life, you always have to think of tomorrow and that going with the flow, living life one day at a time was never an option. But in life, unexpected things are to be expected. Things won't always go as planned and we won't always get what we want. And when such things happen, all you could ever just do is pat yourself at the back, stand on your two feet and keep on walking.

Sometimes, you spend all your time planning things that are yet to come that you forget to stop and breathe. Or think of things that needs to be thought through. I guess that sort of happened to me. I was stuck in this dream i weaved myself that i forgot about real life. I forgot that i could get hurt and that i couldn't always get the results that i want no matter how i try to manipulate the outcome. It took me about a year to accept things for what they are and what they can be before i actually committed myself into this mantra.The future is yet to be told and that we have to live life one day at a time. There is no point in worrying one's self of things that are yet to come, specially when the heart and/or soul needs healing. Focusing on what's at hand and what you still have is not only a good diversion but an appropriate mindset too. Living life one day at a time helps you refocus and regroup. This helps one rethink of what else he/she wants out of life and make one's way towards making it a reality. Live life one day at a time. Carpe Diem!

What does an apology mean? Does it mean "I didn't mean to hurt you but that's just who I am" or "I didn't mean to hurt you. Its not going to happen again"?

This is such a gray area. Everyone expects that if a person apologize, he/she is deeply remorsed with the fact that they have inflicted pain upon others and that they will never do it again. However, it can also mean that the apology is simply IT. Nothing more. Just an "I'm sorry". Unless the latter fully explains what it is to him/her to be sorry. Confused yet? Let's put it this way, a person can be sorry for "what he had done" based on how "what he had done" made you feel. He wouldn't have had to apologize if "what he had done" had no negative impact on you. The person uses the apology to appease you but not necessarily to make amends. On the other hand, if the person does apologize and attached with the apology is him/her changing such actions/attitude/behavior because he/she recognizes the mistake and accepts the fact that it needs to be changed. This i think is the best kind of apology.

The first post says a lot about a blog. Much like first impressions when introduction is made between two people, the first thing you say and how you say it is taken into account in summing up your personality (not that it defines who you are - but I think you get the point).

That being said, I'm starting off my blog with this.

This is my rebirth. A re-introduction to the world of blogging AND writing with a brand new set of attitude towards life. I used to write a lot. I find it therapeutic. Come to think of it, I wrote whenever I was sad. I never could muster anything to write whenever I'm happy. Not that I'm miserable or anything but sometimes I guess there are those days (or months) when we feel down. And I of course is no exception to such times. Some people go out and party.. some people busy themselves with work to cope.. and some, write. I find that WRITING can either be an escape, expression or even both. And so I return.

This is me writing an expression of my escape.