Life is a journey they say. The people you meet and the sights you see accounts for the person you are and yet to become. And that its not where you end up in life that counts but how you lived it. It'd be a cliche to agree to the notion but quite frankly it couldn't be more right. Not that i'm old and wise or anything. I am far from wise.

I've just noticed how people forget sometimes. How it is to live i mean. I wouldn't be saying this now if i hadn't realized this with myself. With me though, i did not forget.. i simply didn't know. I took life just a tad bit too seriously. Closed off myself from any "new" experiences and people. I was a snob to life so to speak. I had a certain way of thinking and was not open to changing any of it.

Now why all of a sudden change my perspective towards said life? At some point, it felt stagnant. Like my life was at a standstill. I suppose everyone goes through it. A standstill i mean. Not knowing where to go and what to do is a little scary. Its as if your life has all of a sudden lack purpose and everyone needs a purpose. At this point a re-evaluation of where you stand in your life and decide where you want to head from here on out. The best question to ask yourself at this point is what do i want? Do i want to enjoy life? Or do i want to sulk and be miserable? Obviously, people want to enjoy their lives. Question is, how do you make it enjoyable? This is where you really decide. Do what you want i say. Its your life after all. By no means though am i encouraging anyone to forget all their obligations but just enjoy life. The last thing you want is to feel overworked and feel unrewarded for it. 'Cause let"s face it, when you let work take over your life you become unhappy and dissatisfied with life. I for one don't want that. So i thought to myself, what can i do to influence some change into my life? Well for one, i'm not very open to new things and people. So i thought maybe i should. Maybe then i'll pick up some new attitude towards life. And maybe you will too. :)

Before 2011 drew to a close, i have been brainstorming on an entry best suited to welcome a new year. Low and behold it is the last day of the first month of said new year yet i have no idea what to write nor how to write  it if i knew what to write.

I guess its only natural for anyone to think they "should" make a new year resolution or create something to mark the day of a new beggining. And i suppose i wanted to do that myself - to welcome a new year with a new "something". But for the most part, i just wanted to organize my thoughts and really recognize where it is that i stand and where i am heading. And quite frankly i don't think i've gotten it down to a tee. I wanted to write what it is that i'm going to do this year, changes i'm going to make and how i'm going to make it happen. I wanted to once and for all take charge of a life that i've procrastinated to live. Make the change so to speak. But what i found out for the last thirty days is that it's not easy to start. I mean... where to begin? There is work to be done, routine to be followed, bills to be paid and little time to think over one's life. Before i knew it, i felt stuck. And i was.

So i thought to myself... this year should be different. And it will be. Last year went by so fast that i didn't even see what happened. 2011 seemed so vague. Not that i have any regrets with its turn out. But it could have been better. With a set of fresh perspective, a new approach to life is on the works. After all, if you keep doing what you've always done... you'll keep getting what you've always gotten.

As requested. A compilation of poems i have written in the past.

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July 21, 2007

Sometimes we are put in a predicament wherein we question whether what happened was how exactly it should be. And sometimes we find ourselves confused and most of the time hurt. Often times we even ask ourselves what kind of person we are or what we have done to deserve where we are or how we were treated.

Makes you wonder. Makes you ask a lot of questions. We ask ourselves why it happened... how. I find that its okay to ask questions, so long you're asking the right ones. We all know it can't be helped. Asking "those" kind of questions is normal. However, at some point you have to start asking yourself the right questions - the important questions to be exact. Like, where do I go from here? How should I look at things? How do i move forward? When we start asking these kind of questions, we are on the road to progress. The last thing you would want, is to be stuck in a routine that you do not benefit from. This road will not be easy. You will sometimes see yourself on the fast lane to recovery only to one day hit a wall and find yourself feeling like you're back to square one. But you just have to be you're own bestfriend and remind yourself of the benefits of moving forward. You have to remind yourself that things are just the way they have to be and that it could only get better.

And things will get better. Eventually. It might not seem like it right now but one day you're gonna wake up and say, "hmmm.." (with an unfazed tone). One day. One day you'll no longer ask questions meant for someone who will never give you a straight answer. One day you'll no longer ask questions that you cannot answer. One day you'll no longer question the decisions you have made. One day you will be certain.

This is not a matter of when but a matter of how. Ask yourself the right questions. Questions that only you can answer and no one else. With the right questions, you can put  things in perspective and act thereon.